Well it's been a while. but that's ok to me life is full of amazing moments followed by somtimes long pauses. This yr has been full of dreams fufilled for me in many ways ... Biggest of the birth of my fourth boy.
Mylo Abraham Battram. He has filled my heart full and overflowing! We also moved into our Comox home which has been a dream of mine, last but not least was we finally received a diagnosis for my eldest son of high functioning autism and adhd. It was not a dream to have a son with autism it was a dream to have a way to finally acsess help for him and our family!
Having a son " on the Spectrum" has opened my eyes to a world of children that are trying desperately to fit, it's almost a epidemic " a generation on the spectrum ". ( more on that to come)
This morning inparticular is sit in awe of the beauty and glory around me from the tallest mt ...to the smallest baby. I hear again a whisper in my heart... Like a echo... That keeps repeating itself resonating in me until it permeates even into the marrow of my bones... " Trust Me" seems simple yet I can recall these words gently holding me back from running away, and coaxing the rage in my heart to quiet, whispering to me that I can let go ....I will still be loved and still be safe. Logic goes into the wind when we chose to trust Him... But that's all I can do again today, I've fallen down to many times on my own ... And He's been there too many times for me to question even thinking no. 2015 I'm in over my head , I chose to take His hand and say again I choose to trust ... Really trust even though there is still so much pain... So much sin... So many places I know I'll fail ... So in Him I will Trust ....my one true love !
